Me, I'm not special in any way. Fact. I'm a coward when it comes to
the world and people. I can't stand people anymore. I'll continue
with my honesty, and admit that my track record in life is not good, and
I admit a bit pathetic. I never achieved my diploma due to multiple
health issues, misdiagnoses, and medicine given to me that effected me
greatly during high school leaving me a bit bitter and resentful of how
schools operate. And I'm a failure the longer I don't have a diploma is
how this society views things. But I just can't bring myself to trust
any of these institutions anymore and teach myself. My reason why....
Living in Montana, I caught a really bad case of pneumonia. I
forced myself to go as much as I could, but I got so bad it was nearly
impossible. Teachers were making me go home because I couldn't stop
coughing, and they'd tell me I needed to go home and rest . When
someone in my family noticed how bad I was after a month, they took me
to the hospital(memory is foggy, maybe clinic). A month after, with
meds and rest, I was only at 50% in overall health, but I went anyway. I
was told I was a horrible student and kicked out because I did not have
a note right there and then, despite me saying I could get the records
to show I was out for a reason, didn't matter. Even lied to my parents
(they lived in WA during this time) and said I walked out saying I quit
school. Parents believed the teacher over me and my brother's
brother-in-law who was with me during the meeting, got pissed, forced me
to move to Washington state.
What really, REALLY, pissed me off was the fact that the credit
system here in WA was different than my previous school, and required more credits to graduate.
They didn't feel like calculating what I would have if I had been
there for my 9th and 10th year. No no, that's just too much work. Instead of
putting me in as a Junior with a class or two to make up credits, they
put me back in as a FRESHMAN and said I had to redo all of high school.
I protested, they didn't care, said they'd look into it, they did nothing.
After a while, I had multiple medical issues hit me one after
another or at the same time that kept me out of school or on and off
throughout the weeks. I was forcing myself to endure as many classes as
I could, through a
respiratory infection for 2 weeks, an intestinal issue that had me in
agony all day for about a month,
physical and mental stress from everything, depression, they put me on
Adderall saying I was ADHD, and a high dose of valium at night because I
was suffering from bad insomnia. I was completely out of it, life was a
blur, a real auto-pilot time. Then, the higher ups as usual needed to
make me seem like I was doing it all deliberately since I was a bad kid
and labelled me as, "not being interested in learning at all" so they
could feel alright about letting me go on paper before giving me the
boot.
And now, years later, here's something that makes my head
explode. I have a 15 year old sibling that has missed more days in one
year than I had missed my entire life of being enrolled in school. They
were rarely ever actually sick, refused to go because they didn't "feel
like it", would become physically violent with kicking punching
slapping even biting if you tried to get them up, whined emotional
distress to counselors as a cover for flat out disobedience and
laziness. She missed MORE days than she went the entire year, but get
this, they didn't kick em out. They gave my siblings chance after
chance after chance, for two years, and even when summer is about to hit
they set them up a summer school program she could attend but they're
refusing and coming up with excuses to avoid that also. These schools
are messed up and these kids are getting just horrid. They schools here
teach well in their classes, but the way they handle students on an
individual level, especially in situations like I've described, is
absolutely appalling. The lazy child that knows how to throw out tears
on command or knows how to parrot excuses from their parents or TV shows
shows they watch, can miss half the school year and gets more chances
than anyone. While the students who are forcing themselves to go to
classes when they are mentally and physically are in constant horrid
conditions, day after day getting worse, get kicked out and are called
lazy and described as, "not interested in learning at all". These
schools are horrid, they need to be fixed, pronto.
Anywho,
first bog. Not sure how this works, if its posted somewhere, I have to
link it somewhere lol but yeah. Thanks for reading if someone does, if
it works that way. *bow* cheers for listening to my rant ha!
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