(Another dream from a while back, few years. Typed in zombie mode, ignore the typos)
eird dreams. had about 5 different dreams in a few hours bleh. the most
interesting ones were the first third and last.. first one I was at an
airport. was with a few people I knew(in dream because we went to this
weirdo place together for 3 years,my dreams have long time lines). he
was going with family to Hawaii for vacation and I was going for an
interview of some sort. I hacked a little handheld so i could use an
xbox controller with it while we waited lol. they ran out of seats for
the planes because they had received a message that to just get all the
seats filled and take off. friend's family made it but he stayed with me
while they went first. a long with several other parents or guardians
people around our age sticking around for next flight, and most of the
airport was abandoned by staff which was odd. we all kinda ganged
together walking since the airport seemed dead. quite a few of the
planes were left as a result.. then we looked back and felt the ground
rumble. smoke rising and heard screaming from a distance. heard popping,
some girl asked what it was, fireworks? started getting louder, then
heard a boom, a military hummer came from around the building far off,
soldiers through ground floor terminal doors. two in the back said out
loud "what the hell are they doing here? get em out!" -they can't man,
not back that way. if they push back down the runway, they'll be coming
soon- "better being a target than be crushed in a god damn building.
they were talking to us and told us to walk with them. was only a handful
of soldiers. it was grey enough to see everything but not with great
detail. Then someone said stop. we all stood still.
We could hear this
faint sound getting louder. "Tink tink tink vreeeeeeueueu tink tink vreueueueu." one of them
screamed out, "God damn it. Sly EMP! They're coming!" Within a second I
saw something shoot over head and drop 50 yards(around that) down the runway and
explode. They started yelling out things to each other while they hid
and just jets and jets flew over the ground was shaking from them. a few
helicopters i could hear but not see except for one that came up from
behind the airport and started blasting a certain points to take it
down. it was so loud my ears were hurting. one girl was just standing
and staring in shock. i was pulling her hand to get down behind this
luggage cart but she was just frozen. then, they started firing at the
planes. I jumped up,grabbed her, and pulled her down. she started
screaming with her face into my shoulder squeezing me moving her hands
like she was trying to grab onto anything to save her life. they blew up
most of the planes, half the airport collapsed. when the girl stopped
screaming she was started crying. there were still someone jets flying
overhead. heard a soldier yelling he fuck them up. another
soldier(higher rank maybe) "that they didn't know if there was anyone in
the airport or the planes, they're not discriminating or checking. they
just want blood". i asked if anyone had a soda something with sugar.
soldier rolled a bottle of coke to me "I busted a machine inside and
took a few in case we'd be here long.." he had a little smile but then
it went away "fuuuuuuuck!" and he kicked a piece of a seat cushion that
was burning, unzipped my coat covered her with it. i got the girl to
look up while she sat with her back against the cart arms around her
knees, she was shaking like crazy. got her to start drinking the soda.
since I remembered hearing that sugars help even you out with shock and
adrenaline.there were flames around the area enough we could see each
other and down the runway a bit. the soldiers were talking about meeting
somewhere east, dropping us off somewhere that we could get out, I
wanted to stick around and see what else would happened if i followed
them. but then i remembered the girl, she was already flipping out and
losing it I needed to stick around and chill her out.. friend was trying
to using his phone. "Sly EMP man, not gonna work for at least 3 hours."
someone from to the right of us said." friend said -what makes it sly? I
know what EMP is, how is it they were still flying?" "if the chip board
doesn't have a type of coil tuned to the magnetic frequency of the EMP
it shorts out temporarily. no point frying tech you could use after you
wipe em out..." wind started blowing harder. everyone got quiet for a
bit. could hear the fires and see the orange glow. some soldiers had
gone inside, ordered to look for a few food supplies to eat while we
waited. they came back half hour or more with some bags. asked if we
ate, said no but we're ok, they tossed us each a few of the bags with
stuff in them. "the grills were gas, who uses gas grills in airports?
made everyone cheese burgers. cooked fast so its well done, don't bitch
and just eat." everyone ate slow. each bag they tossed us had 2 bottled
water, 2 sodas, a few bags of chips some candy bars, jerky, and an extra
burger wrapped up. we thanked them, asked where we should go as they
got food and supplies for themselves situated. "safest way for you to
travel and bee on your own would be east away from the city. 3 soldiers
handed their pistols to us, said was for protection. we sat for a while,
then they left wished each other luck. and we were by ourselves. we
grabbed some wood from chairs in the building rolled a clothes in
spilled plane fuel to help a little with seeing and we walked
off.----thats the last part of the dream. lol to save you from the
longer version xD the other dreams were shorter. but yeah lol
Friday, January 24, 2014
Interrogatives To Lost Personality (Observing people and ourselves)
How do you tell someone, without seeming uncaring or putting yourself
on pedastal, that they aren't who you thought they were? Or that the
person they were only existed when the story that is their life "felt"
perfect? When any form of distress, uncertainty, or belief in a lesser
scenario takes a beloved's personality and stores it away to allow a new
one to take its place.. In what way can a single person's understanding
of who someone is becomes the foundation of another's identity, or the
very reason they wish to make it disappeared?
I feel I've seen and dealt with too much being an observer of people. It's the reason why I believe psychologists are more messed up than their patients. I've been like a counselor to a lot of people. Walked, pulled, and pushed into many situations in which I've had to interact with people that were decent, cruel, selfish, crazy, you name it. Situations between friends, family, and strangers where I remember everything said and done on the winning side, losing side, even when both sides were right or wrong and they just wanted to battle it out just to try and be above the other. Now, how do you become so insightful seeing all this done, time after time, until you know exactly how this person or that person will act? How they think? And believe before they even do it to the point you know better than to allow them inside your own little bubble? We do this, then suspend those beliefs for a single person or several persons over time. Because of love? Trust? Gullibility? Maybe we're become tired how things are and want something different. We get lonely, and allow them to be at the center of life to distract from it even when you know they won't be around for long. Not only because you like them, as far as that expression can go, but they appear to be the someone who is most likely to help change what you've learned to expect and reshape the view of the world around, give it a new color.
We've all been guilty of expecting something more from a friendship or relationship, because past experiences have hurt us in a way that scarred and took away your ability to trust someone completely. It's just as much human nature as leaving someone important to you behind when you hear something is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. sometimes that person really is special, but they don't figure it out before it's too late. Over a long time the job might turn out not to be once-in-a-life and they find something better elsewhere. Then in retrospect, they realize that the person they left behind was what was once-in-a-lifetime.
As I said, I'm guilty of this also. I've had my share of friendships and relationships that I let go of for good and selfish reasons, looking back I wish I hadn't. Most people change for better or for worse, but some already have a perfect personality that needs no altering. It makes me sad, and honestly uncomfortable, when I had a friend that I knew for many many years with a great personality before I moved away, only to talk to them years later and find out that they are basically a stranger with no personality that could even could a candle to their former selves. I swear, I think some of my friends might be amazed that I haven't changed much personality-wise. I still try to be the nice guy who always lets the person behind me cut in line. 1)What's the harm in it? and 2)I'd feel bad if I ended up getting something they actually needed more. I do this too much I think. a few people asked me why I'm so nice, as if i had some agenda or something(which is true. only a handful you will ever meet will be genuinely nice just to be nice). I want to be nice just 'cause I want to be nice. And I'm mean to point when I feel I really need to be to get a point across, but I'm way too nice for my own good. Being too nice=doormat to 95% of people capable of understanding they could use it for their own benefit.
Do yourselfs a favor, observe people, watch them, especially the rudest and the nicest ones. Watch for the signs of being guinine at what they do. genuine nice, they do not look at things with a sense of "what am I getting out of it?", they look at it first "what am I helping with and I hope I do a good job" THAT'S a truly nice person =) I'm not listening to people's problems for my own benefit(unless it's something I've never encountered. in which I use my 5 trains of thought and figure the best out), or doing things to help others for myself, I really could care less what's wrong with me mentally and physically. I'm amused it's taken this long and I expected far worse by now. The way my body is action and little problems, my mum wants me to get a head scan to see if I have a tumor xD, but I don't care so much. I don't have a job or insurance and it would end up going to them if i did pass away and I WILL NOT leave them with a financial problem from me. anywho lol that was off topic. PERSONALITY- How do you let someone know they aren't the person you thought they were? answer: You don't. If they changed so easily, then it's safe to assume that the real personality comes out when trouble arises, similar to how the drunk that speaks his mind after an hour of straight shots but would never be so truthful while he's sober. the truth of a personality comes out when the times are rough. Anyone can be happy when things are perfect. when things are falling apart and you still feel happy because you have something special that is more important to you, THAT is when you're truly happy. And sadly, you can't be truly happy unless you know what it's like to be truly sad.
So...ask yourself this. Have I been truly sad to know what true happiness is? And have I been truly happy to know what true sadness is? And ask yourself, why is it that I can't seem to find a balance. it's always one or the other. Think about it.
I feel I've seen and dealt with too much being an observer of people. It's the reason why I believe psychologists are more messed up than their patients. I've been like a counselor to a lot of people. Walked, pulled, and pushed into many situations in which I've had to interact with people that were decent, cruel, selfish, crazy, you name it. Situations between friends, family, and strangers where I remember everything said and done on the winning side, losing side, even when both sides were right or wrong and they just wanted to battle it out just to try and be above the other. Now, how do you become so insightful seeing all this done, time after time, until you know exactly how this person or that person will act? How they think? And believe before they even do it to the point you know better than to allow them inside your own little bubble? We do this, then suspend those beliefs for a single person or several persons over time. Because of love? Trust? Gullibility? Maybe we're become tired how things are and want something different. We get lonely, and allow them to be at the center of life to distract from it even when you know they won't be around for long. Not only because you like them, as far as that expression can go, but they appear to be the someone who is most likely to help change what you've learned to expect and reshape the view of the world around, give it a new color.
We've all been guilty of expecting something more from a friendship or relationship, because past experiences have hurt us in a way that scarred and took away your ability to trust someone completely. It's just as much human nature as leaving someone important to you behind when you hear something is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. sometimes that person really is special, but they don't figure it out before it's too late. Over a long time the job might turn out not to be once-in-a-life and they find something better elsewhere. Then in retrospect, they realize that the person they left behind was what was once-in-a-lifetime.
As I said, I'm guilty of this also. I've had my share of friendships and relationships that I let go of for good and selfish reasons, looking back I wish I hadn't. Most people change for better or for worse, but some already have a perfect personality that needs no altering. It makes me sad, and honestly uncomfortable, when I had a friend that I knew for many many years with a great personality before I moved away, only to talk to them years later and find out that they are basically a stranger with no personality that could even could a candle to their former selves. I swear, I think some of my friends might be amazed that I haven't changed much personality-wise. I still try to be the nice guy who always lets the person behind me cut in line. 1)What's the harm in it? and 2)I'd feel bad if I ended up getting something they actually needed more. I do this too much I think. a few people asked me why I'm so nice, as if i had some agenda or something(which is true. only a handful you will ever meet will be genuinely nice just to be nice). I want to be nice just 'cause I want to be nice. And I'm mean to point when I feel I really need to be to get a point across, but I'm way too nice for my own good. Being too nice=doormat to 95% of people capable of understanding they could use it for their own benefit.
Do yourselfs a favor, observe people, watch them, especially the rudest and the nicest ones. Watch for the signs of being guinine at what they do. genuine nice, they do not look at things with a sense of "what am I getting out of it?", they look at it first "what am I helping with and I hope I do a good job" THAT'S a truly nice person =) I'm not listening to people's problems for my own benefit(unless it's something I've never encountered. in which I use my 5 trains of thought and figure the best out), or doing things to help others for myself, I really could care less what's wrong with me mentally and physically. I'm amused it's taken this long and I expected far worse by now. The way my body is action and little problems, my mum wants me to get a head scan to see if I have a tumor xD, but I don't care so much. I don't have a job or insurance and it would end up going to them if i did pass away and I WILL NOT leave them with a financial problem from me. anywho lol that was off topic. PERSONALITY- How do you let someone know they aren't the person you thought they were? answer: You don't. If they changed so easily, then it's safe to assume that the real personality comes out when trouble arises, similar to how the drunk that speaks his mind after an hour of straight shots but would never be so truthful while he's sober. the truth of a personality comes out when the times are rough. Anyone can be happy when things are perfect. when things are falling apart and you still feel happy because you have something special that is more important to you, THAT is when you're truly happy. And sadly, you can't be truly happy unless you know what it's like to be truly sad.
So...ask yourself this. Have I been truly sad to know what true happiness is? And have I been truly happy to know what true sadness is? And ask yourself, why is it that I can't seem to find a balance. it's always one or the other. Think about it.
Humanity is the Ultimate Story of Moral Ambiguity
How do we define the word
Human? As a noun it is described as "A human being, especially a person
as distinguished from an animal or alien";A member of the genus Homo and especially of the species Homo sapiens.
To me, that doesn't quiet sum it up. Some believe our brain-to-body
mass ratio with our large problem solving, forethought having, language
capable, memory holding frontal lobe coupled with our bi-pedal movement
is what defines us. But still, that does sound quite it to me. The more
I think of the people I've met, the people I know, the people I'm
probably going to meet, I notice something that seems to encompass
humanity throughout history...morality is and forever will ambiguous at
it's core.
Whether boy, girl, woman, man, straight, gay, bi, religious, agnostic, atheist etc nobody will ever have a full understanding what it is to be moral. And I don't believe there will ever be such thing as perfect morality since we didn't evolve to have as such nor would it ever be possible anyway. Contradiction has always been the running theme everywhere in our what we call human morality. One rule that is universally known, and yet it's ignored on a daily basis by most people, is the golden,"treat others the way you would like to be treated". Even in the holiest of holies(to religious people at least) texts of supposed "peace and love" religions of today and our long ago past, say it but never do it. Time after time again, you hear it because it is said everywhere, but it's almost shooed off, ignored by even those who preach it. I just don't see it anymore, not even in my own family. Sure, people can do something nice for each other once in a while, but it has become so rare now to see someone help another or do for another and NOT have an agenda or expect something in return, even for the smallest thing.
The other day I noticed something, and it got me thinking of how people want rewards for doing something moral, or at least generally considered the decent thing to do. I walk to the store often, and on my way back I saw a poster for a family's missing dog. I looked at it, remembered how the dog looked and it's name, and started walking away. My brain went "ooh, might want to check and make sure I remember the last area he was seen", so i went back and looked it over properly again. I didn't even notice the fact it had big $$$ claiming a reward the first time I looked because it was the furthest thing from my mind. To me, a pet is another family member. And I find myself ashamed that our society offers monetary rewards to make sure people REALLY keep an eye open for kidnapped or lost family members. Have we really sunk so far and let money be our reason for living? aren't you queezy in your stomach that we've gotten to the point we have to offer money to entice our own communities to help bring a beloved family member home?
In my point of view, the moment you take a sound rule, such as 'the golden rule', and add it into humanity, it's immediately corrupted. every law, every rule, every regulation we know and have are man made and thus can never be perfect. first of all, if we can't stop ourselves from being rude, crude, unforgiving, ruthless, insulting, greedy, liars, and everything else, don't expect anyone to treat you decently. I think there should be 2 days a week where we sit and reflect as a people the reason why 'the golden rule' prepares us for interaction with one another. But i want to be clear on this when I say NOT as a religious or cultural thing, but as a species. Make it The 'Motto of Homo Sapiens' . Just 2 days a week, where we consider that what we have is more than some have, less than others, how we need to treat others better, help others that have it worse, help even someone you don't like because that's how bonds are made and rivalries can break. As soon as we think of only ourselves, and not at all about those around us, who we like, who we hate, that's when the real humanity dies. humanity is caring about others no matter their sex, race, sexual preference, god,gods, health, wealth, land, power, and being willing to give up it up to help save one another. by helping each other we help ourselves. Once we learn that, truly learn that as a species, moral ambigiouty could disappear.
Whether boy, girl, woman, man, straight, gay, bi, religious, agnostic, atheist etc nobody will ever have a full understanding what it is to be moral. And I don't believe there will ever be such thing as perfect morality since we didn't evolve to have as such nor would it ever be possible anyway. Contradiction has always been the running theme everywhere in our what we call human morality. One rule that is universally known, and yet it's ignored on a daily basis by most people, is the golden,"treat others the way you would like to be treated". Even in the holiest of holies(to religious people at least) texts of supposed "peace and love" religions of today and our long ago past, say it but never do it. Time after time again, you hear it because it is said everywhere, but it's almost shooed off, ignored by even those who preach it. I just don't see it anymore, not even in my own family. Sure, people can do something nice for each other once in a while, but it has become so rare now to see someone help another or do for another and NOT have an agenda or expect something in return, even for the smallest thing.
The other day I noticed something, and it got me thinking of how people want rewards for doing something moral, or at least generally considered the decent thing to do. I walk to the store often, and on my way back I saw a poster for a family's missing dog. I looked at it, remembered how the dog looked and it's name, and started walking away. My brain went "ooh, might want to check and make sure I remember the last area he was seen", so i went back and looked it over properly again. I didn't even notice the fact it had big $$$ claiming a reward the first time I looked because it was the furthest thing from my mind. To me, a pet is another family member. And I find myself ashamed that our society offers monetary rewards to make sure people REALLY keep an eye open for kidnapped or lost family members. Have we really sunk so far and let money be our reason for living? aren't you queezy in your stomach that we've gotten to the point we have to offer money to entice our own communities to help bring a beloved family member home?
In my point of view, the moment you take a sound rule, such as 'the golden rule', and add it into humanity, it's immediately corrupted. every law, every rule, every regulation we know and have are man made and thus can never be perfect. first of all, if we can't stop ourselves from being rude, crude, unforgiving, ruthless, insulting, greedy, liars, and everything else, don't expect anyone to treat you decently. I think there should be 2 days a week where we sit and reflect as a people the reason why 'the golden rule' prepares us for interaction with one another. But i want to be clear on this when I say NOT as a religious or cultural thing, but as a species. Make it The 'Motto of Homo Sapiens' . Just 2 days a week, where we consider that what we have is more than some have, less than others, how we need to treat others better, help others that have it worse, help even someone you don't like because that's how bonds are made and rivalries can break. As soon as we think of only ourselves, and not at all about those around us, who we like, who we hate, that's when the real humanity dies. humanity is caring about others no matter their sex, race, sexual preference, god,gods, health, wealth, land, power, and being willing to give up it up to help save one another. by helping each other we help ourselves. Once we learn that, truly learn that as a species, moral ambigiouty could disappear.
How Religion and Blind Belief Prevents and Destroys Perfect Relationships
(From a long while ago)
This note was inspired (and caused me to remember something in the past) because of a profile I saw. I was rated by a woman(more like a girl when it comes to understanding how she really sounded)on a site, so I checked out her profile also. "About me" was typical. Looking for someone who's a decent human being, doesn't lie, good virtues, all have seen this a million times. She stressed on how she didn't want to meet or date people that didn't have good morals. The last of list is the most revealing of her mentality, "above all else must be GOD fearing". Does she not realized just how bigoted that makes her look?By putting that one sentence, she has revealed herself as caring less about those morals, good virtues, kindness, honesty being in any person if they don't blindly following something like she does. All of those good quality turn out to be a bit of cover to pretend she herself is a goodhearted accepting person. She's a bigot. And that bigotry will, and probably already has, caused her to not take up or have a relationship with many guys that could've been the greatest person she'd ever met or loved. I've given advice too many guys and girls about relationships. But I can say with all honesty, the most disturbing and dumbfounding is the "religion" issue that I hear. One question was from this guy on a site (the old MyYearBook). He was a christian and his girlfriend was an atheist. He told me that she was very firm in the fact that she would not convert, and he didn't know if he could be with her if she wouldn't. He didn't said he couldn't see how it could work". I asked how long they had been together, he said about 4 months and gave me a quick rundown.He's said they both had never been as happy as they were together. I told him, "you enjoy the same things, you always wanted to be with each other, you're very close and respectful towards each other.He said at the beginning it didn't matter to him what she believed. That he was in love and she was amazing, it hadn't crossed his mind because he'd never been that happy. But then he asked what church she went to, and she said she was an atheist. That was when he was afraid to be with her because "he didn't know how he could be with an atheist".I was completely dumbfounded by this instant belief that he would have to even consider rejecting her. I asked him why he wanted her to convert. He said he was a christian and his family was christian. "What does that have to do with anything about you two? He actually said he didn't think it would work because she didn't believe, go to church. Again I asked, ok but answer the question, what does that have to do with anything?" He said he didn't know, it just felt like something might go wrong. I called him out, "what does she think about it?" She told him she loved him and he can believe whatever he wants, but she's can't convert or believe in something she really doesn't. She had no problem with people being religious as long as they don't harass her, tell her she's immoral or evil, talk trash about her behind her back and make up lies to pretend they're better than her just for not being like them or believing in something similar, but most of all trying to forcing her into it.Basically, she was fine with him being religious, that's his and his family's choice. But she didn't see that as a reason to not love him or that she can't be with him. That stuff aside, she loved him, not is religion or his belief, and unlike most Christians she'd met he was decent and actually kind. He on the other hand, had been brought up being told that he HAS to marry a Christian like himself because they are the only REAL good people, and everyone else is pretty much pretending they're good to trick people.That's how MANY Christians are raised, despite the overwhelming truth that they're preaching lies, bigotry, and hatred to make themselves feel better than they actually are. It's sad isn't it?He was conflicted about the situation because he could feel it deeply that what they brought him up thinking was completely untrue, because he loved someone who wasn't Christian, religious, or a believer in a deity, who loved and respected him. She was a good hearted kind person who wanted to be with him, but all the brainwashed made him believe falsely that anyone who would not covert immediately had to be a bad person.I asked him if she tried to convert him to atheism, he said not at all. He explained that they talked about religion without arguing, just discuss it because she likes to learn more about it even if she doesn't believe it.I pointed it out, "honestly, it's sad to think you're willing to throw a wonderful relationship in the trash, and reject someone you're so close to because she won't convert to whatever you want her to be. You want her to take away a part of herself, throw it away, and be more like you to make YOU happy. And at the same time, she saw you for you, loves you for YOU. Not the religion you profess, not how often you go to church, none of that. Before you knew, all you wanted was to be with her and her with you. Now you're the only one willing to see everything differently and turn your back on her because your family raised you to be hateful and judgmental of others. He said, "It's fair to ask her to change for me?". I said how is it fair? Are you going to become an atheist? he said no of course. Not kowtowing to what you want doesn't make her selfish. And your take on it is showing you're biased, selfish, and hypocritical. You're saying "I only love Christians. I can't love non-Christians, that's immoral". But your atheist girlfriend says, "I love you even if we don't agree. I want you. That's what matters to me."He started to understand what he was doing, how she really loved and cared about him, and how he wasn't treating her very lovingly or seeing what was actually happening(he couldn't. The entire choice to brainwash someone to think a certain way to hopefully make them so brainwashed that can't even recognize they're doing something bad and claim it as good. Look at WBC and the kids that left. When they figured out how mean and cruel they were being, they had broke down in tears and left the cult)He actually admitted that he started crying because he didn't realize just how judgemental he was being without realizing it and was ashamed that his family made him blind to their bigotry.Told him that he knew what was right now, so he can correct himself. Show her how grateful you are for having her as she is, and her beliefs don't matter. I asked him if he loved her, he said with all his heart more than anything he wants to be hers. Told him love comes first. if you love each other, you're both good people, and treat each other kindly, nothing else should matter. He thanked me and said god bless me xD then he asked what I believed in, I said I was an atheist. Response, "LOLOLOLOL Thank you still anyway ;) god bless you still".
I think if you're religious and read this, you should really take it to heart the truth of this story. It's not made up, it actually happened(I hate those bull chain letters/comments BLEH!)So many potentially amazing relationships that could be are stopped or prevented because of a biased belief that love is almost 'regulated' by religion. You should choose based on the type of person they are not what their religion is. It is considered petty to think,"we both have the same morals, but I choose to think mine are just BETTER because I'm religious, and since you're not religious you're not worthy of love, especially MY love. god wouldn't want me to and might punish me if I loved you or stayed with you". and that's because the bible teaches untruth that non-believers are horrible immoral and only do bad things and they aren't capable of doing good deeds
Psalm 14
The fool says in his heart, “There is no God.” They are corrupt, they do abominable deeds, there is none who does good."So apparently (this is to all my friends and loved ones), I'm an abominable unintelligent fool who is evil and do wrong to all of you, never good, never kind, only lie, corrupt. :| This is where you get to choose:A) the bible is infallible and I'm a horrible human being because a book told you to think so rather than going off what you know from experience.B)Yahweh "inspired" them to deliberately lie in order to spread hatred, which you'd have to believe your god is evil to spread lies about people just to encourage hate and convince people it's okay to be cruel and attack decent people.or C)The bible is not infallible, is not truth, is not history, and is invented by people not a magical being.In the end you have to choose one. If you don't, you're lying to yourself and leaving yourself open to be used and taken advantage of when an important choice needs to be made. Blind belief, blind believe in a god that lies to spread hate against good people, or the bible is false and you're not going to use what it says to learn what is good and moral.
This note was inspired (and caused me to remember something in the past) because of a profile I saw. I was rated by a woman(more like a girl when it comes to understanding how she really sounded)on a site, so I checked out her profile also. "About me" was typical. Looking for someone who's a decent human being, doesn't lie, good virtues, all have seen this a million times. She stressed on how she didn't want to meet or date people that didn't have good morals. The last of list is the most revealing of her mentality, "above all else must be GOD fearing". Does she not realized just how bigoted that makes her look?By putting that one sentence, she has revealed herself as caring less about those morals, good virtues, kindness, honesty being in any person if they don't blindly following something like she does. All of those good quality turn out to be a bit of cover to pretend she herself is a goodhearted accepting person. She's a bigot. And that bigotry will, and probably already has, caused her to not take up or have a relationship with many guys that could've been the greatest person she'd ever met or loved. I've given advice too many guys and girls about relationships. But I can say with all honesty, the most disturbing and dumbfounding is the "religion" issue that I hear. One question was from this guy on a site (the old MyYearBook). He was a christian and his girlfriend was an atheist. He told me that she was very firm in the fact that she would not convert, and he didn't know if he could be with her if she wouldn't. He didn't said he couldn't see how it could work". I asked how long they had been together, he said about 4 months and gave me a quick rundown.He's said they both had never been as happy as they were together. I told him, "you enjoy the same things, you always wanted to be with each other, you're very close and respectful towards each other.He said at the beginning it didn't matter to him what she believed. That he was in love and she was amazing, it hadn't crossed his mind because he'd never been that happy. But then he asked what church she went to, and she said she was an atheist. That was when he was afraid to be with her because "he didn't know how he could be with an atheist".I was completely dumbfounded by this instant belief that he would have to even consider rejecting her. I asked him why he wanted her to convert. He said he was a christian and his family was christian. "What does that have to do with anything about you two? He actually said he didn't think it would work because she didn't believe, go to church. Again I asked, ok but answer the question, what does that have to do with anything?" He said he didn't know, it just felt like something might go wrong. I called him out, "what does she think about it?" She told him she loved him and he can believe whatever he wants, but she's can't convert or believe in something she really doesn't. She had no problem with people being religious as long as they don't harass her, tell her she's immoral or evil, talk trash about her behind her back and make up lies to pretend they're better than her just for not being like them or believing in something similar, but most of all trying to forcing her into it.Basically, she was fine with him being religious, that's his and his family's choice. But she didn't see that as a reason to not love him or that she can't be with him. That stuff aside, she loved him, not is religion or his belief, and unlike most Christians she'd met he was decent and actually kind. He on the other hand, had been brought up being told that he HAS to marry a Christian like himself because they are the only REAL good people, and everyone else is pretty much pretending they're good to trick people.That's how MANY Christians are raised, despite the overwhelming truth that they're preaching lies, bigotry, and hatred to make themselves feel better than they actually are. It's sad isn't it?He was conflicted about the situation because he could feel it deeply that what they brought him up thinking was completely untrue, because he loved someone who wasn't Christian, religious, or a believer in a deity, who loved and respected him. She was a good hearted kind person who wanted to be with him, but all the brainwashed made him believe falsely that anyone who would not covert immediately had to be a bad person.I asked him if she tried to convert him to atheism, he said not at all. He explained that they talked about religion without arguing, just discuss it because she likes to learn more about it even if she doesn't believe it.I pointed it out, "honestly, it's sad to think you're willing to throw a wonderful relationship in the trash, and reject someone you're so close to because she won't convert to whatever you want her to be. You want her to take away a part of herself, throw it away, and be more like you to make YOU happy. And at the same time, she saw you for you, loves you for YOU. Not the religion you profess, not how often you go to church, none of that. Before you knew, all you wanted was to be with her and her with you. Now you're the only one willing to see everything differently and turn your back on her because your family raised you to be hateful and judgmental of others. He said, "It's fair to ask her to change for me?". I said how is it fair? Are you going to become an atheist? he said no of course. Not kowtowing to what you want doesn't make her selfish. And your take on it is showing you're biased, selfish, and hypocritical. You're saying "I only love Christians. I can't love non-Christians, that's immoral". But your atheist girlfriend says, "I love you even if we don't agree. I want you. That's what matters to me."He started to understand what he was doing, how she really loved and cared about him, and how he wasn't treating her very lovingly or seeing what was actually happening(he couldn't. The entire choice to brainwash someone to think a certain way to hopefully make them so brainwashed that can't even recognize they're doing something bad and claim it as good. Look at WBC and the kids that left. When they figured out how mean and cruel they were being, they had broke down in tears and left the cult)He actually admitted that he started crying because he didn't realize just how judgemental he was being without realizing it and was ashamed that his family made him blind to their bigotry.Told him that he knew what was right now, so he can correct himself. Show her how grateful you are for having her as she is, and her beliefs don't matter. I asked him if he loved her, he said with all his heart more than anything he wants to be hers. Told him love comes first. if you love each other, you're both good people, and treat each other kindly, nothing else should matter. He thanked me and said god bless me xD then he asked what I believed in, I said I was an atheist. Response, "LOLOLOLOL Thank you still anyway ;) god bless you still".
I think if you're religious and read this, you should really take it to heart the truth of this story. It's not made up, it actually happened(I hate those bull chain letters/comments BLEH!)So many potentially amazing relationships that could be are stopped or prevented because of a biased belief that love is almost 'regulated' by religion. You should choose based on the type of person they are not what their religion is. It is considered petty to think,"we both have the same morals, but I choose to think mine are just BETTER because I'm religious, and since you're not religious you're not worthy of love, especially MY love. god wouldn't want me to and might punish me if I loved you or stayed with you". and that's because the bible teaches untruth that non-believers are horrible immoral and only do bad things and they aren't capable of doing good deeds
Psalm 14
The fool says in his heart, “There is no God.” They are corrupt, they do abominable deeds, there is none who does good."So apparently (this is to all my friends and loved ones), I'm an abominable unintelligent fool who is evil and do wrong to all of you, never good, never kind, only lie, corrupt. :| This is where you get to choose:A) the bible is infallible and I'm a horrible human being because a book told you to think so rather than going off what you know from experience.B)Yahweh "inspired" them to deliberately lie in order to spread hatred, which you'd have to believe your god is evil to spread lies about people just to encourage hate and convince people it's okay to be cruel and attack decent people.or C)The bible is not infallible, is not truth, is not history, and is invented by people not a magical being.In the end you have to choose one. If you don't, you're lying to yourself and leaving yourself open to be used and taken advantage of when an important choice needs to be made. Blind belief, blind believe in a god that lies to spread hate against good people, or the bible is false and you're not going to use what it says to learn what is good and moral.
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
Coffee = Life blood
I chant to the java gods daily. dance around the alter/coffee machine
Bubble bubble brew with no trouble!
Temporarily grant me some energy doubled!
For I am half asleep, unhinged is who be I.. SEE?!
Make me a a jittery, hyper, strung out zombie!
*mix in a cup a concoction:
the black draining of the Beans of Life
the juice of the moo moo animal.
small piles of shrunken sweet cubes
stirred with a shallow shovel on the end of a piece of metal*
BEHOLD! I GAIN LIFE AND ENERGY!
Drink with me brothers and sisters! PRAISE THE JAVA GODS!
LONG LIVE THE BEAN!
LONG LIVE THE BEAN!
LONG LIVE THE BEAN!
Bubble bubble brew with no trouble!
Temporarily grant me some energy doubled!
For I am half asleep, unhinged is who be I.. SEE?!
Make me a a jittery, hyper, strung out zombie!
*mix in a cup a concoction:
the black draining of the Beans of Life
the juice of the moo moo animal.
small piles of shrunken sweet cubes
stirred with a shallow shovel on the end of a piece of metal*
BEHOLD! I GAIN LIFE AND ENERGY!
Drink with me brothers and sisters! PRAISE THE JAVA GODS!
LONG LIVE THE BEAN!
LONG LIVE THE BEAN!
LONG LIVE THE BEAN!
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